I’ve been very quiet on the blogging front for the last few weeks – this is because I’ve been dealing with the slow decline of my grandfather’s heath. Currently he’s in hospital suffering with cancer, an pneumonia and a perforated bowl. He’s too sick to be operated on. He is dying.
The feeling of helplessness I have is overwhelming and all-consuming. No matter how hard I wish, no matter how hard I pray he is going to be leaving my family soon.
Writing is the only thing keeping me going at the moment, the ability to delve into my character’s world and absorb myself in their problems while escaping from my own is what’s keeping me sane right now. Am I sticking my head in the sand? Perhaps. I know what’s coming and I know it will be hard, but for now I feel best when I’m away from my world and playing in someone else’s.